It’s frustrating, not knowing if it’s you or them or some combination of the two…
Fresh off of graduation high
There were no limits to the sky
I had a dozen dreams
At twenty two
that was good enough for me
With a pen and a degree
A golden road of possibilities
Maybe I had rose colored glasses
About glamour and sky scrapers
Fast paced and deadlines
“It’ll be too much pressure”
Supposedly aiming higher than I could see
But what’s an aspiring career creative supposed to do?
Told to take what you can get
“Not enough experience”
Without direction or guidance
It chips at confidence
So I made myself small
To fill a resume
And get a little pay
Micromanaging and gurus
Instead of mentors and leadership
Work harder, some said
Ignoring the toxic systems already in place
Set up for failure instead of success
I didn’t know how to pause and assess
To pivot, more broadly, and go another way
You say I’m not good enough
Before seeing what I can do
You say it’s not a good fit
But you’ve yet to see me
Leaving me lost
with empty questions
How do I reinvent myself
If all I get is silence or half truths?
I’m not in my twenties anymore
But 2023 has me roaring
Talking to whomever I can
To find that magic button
That will elevate my dreams
And I know dreams change
Landscapes, lifestyles, and markets never stay the same
Desk life isn’t what it use to be
Blame it on technology
I fault your lack of variety
Willingness to embrace diversity
Especially when it comes to those
Who have different needs
All I’ve ever known is my gift(s)
Wanting to use them
To offer a unique perspective
And I don’t need a cubicle to use them well
But it would be nice
If you evolved
As I do
And gave me not just a chance
But a real opportunity
That becomes a trajectory